Waiting for the bottom to fall out..... Ever feel like things are going TOO well? ....Had so many obstacles pop up a long the way that it makes you nervous to stop and enjoy the moments you should be celebratin??? Welcome to my life.
7 more days left in my first of two 12 week clinical rotations. Only 13 weeks to go till I'm done... I have the job offer, an employer that is perfect and I am so lucky to have found as my first real world post-grad job. I have the house with the roommates that pay most of the bills, I have one or two good friends who look out for me when they can. And I have my confidence, which has gotten me all of those things that I have worked my cute ass off for.
.... knowing that I have all of these really fantastic things going for me in my life makes me so nervous. I know, I know, me - nervous? The 'what if's' of life are starting to freak me out. I am having a really hard time not being able to jump at all my opportunties and seal the deals that I have open windows and doors into a way amazing new adventure. Instead I keep my excitement to myself ... and my what-if fears. And with that comes a more closed off, less compassionate, more intense me that keeps me awake at night.
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